Heros

Last week I had a long time co-worker leave our company -- before he left he sent out the customary good bye email to everyone and he called me "a hero in our midst".

That comment made me cry and got me to thinking -- I don't consider myself a hero -- I don't consider myself strong either --

I am just a mom who is doing what she can to make sure her daughter is remembered for the wonderful person she was -- and to make sure that people understand that this is in our back yards -- it is not somewhere else or happening to other people -- it is effecting families that we know, people we go to church with, your next door neighbor.

I am just a mom that does not want to see teens waste their lives for a few minutes of getting high, I am just a mom that does not want to meet another mom that knows exactly how I feel -- that gets the looks when we tell them how our children died. I am just a mom that is doing this because it is all I have left to do for Kaitlyn.

I am just a mom who cries everyday for what could have been and for what is -- many days I just don't want to get out of bed --

So no I am not a hero -- I am just a mom who is loves BOTH of her kids with all of my heart.