Monday, August 20, 2007

Heros

Last week I had a long time co-worker leave our company -- before he left he sent out the customary good bye email to everyone and he called me "a hero in our midst".

That comment made me cry and got me to thinking -- I don't consider myself a hero -- I don't consider myself strong either --

I am just a mom who is doing what she can to make sure her daughter is remembered for the wonderful person she was -- and to make sure that people understand that this is in our back yards -- it is not somewhere else or happening to other people -- it is effecting families that we know, people we go to church with, your next door neighbor.

I am just a mom that does not want to see teens waste their lives for a few minutes of getting high, I am just a mom that does not want to meet another mom that knows exactly how I feel -- that gets the looks when we tell them how our children died. I am just a mom that is doing this because it is all I have left to do for Kaitlyn.

I am just a mom who cries everyday for what could have been and for what is -- many days I just don't want to get out of bed --

So no I am not a hero -- I am just a mom who is loves BOTH of her kids with all of my heart.

6 comments:

Vickie ~ WhimseyDimples said...

Found your blog through the Wishbladers yahoo group. Kaitlyn sounds like a wonderful daughter and friend.
Sending hugs and prayers for your hurting heart, Cheri.

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Hope you have a wonderful turnout for Kaitlyn's Crop!

alesha said...

Cheri,
I know that this week more than ever is going to be very hard. You are a very special mom and friend. I am so glad that you have found a place where you can let your feelings go and others can give you support. I will be thinking of you, Kaitlyn and your family in so many ways this week.
Love ya,
Alesha

Mere said...

This post made me cry.....You sound like a wonderful mom and friend....God bless you and your family and most importantly...Kaitlyn. Stop by my blog sometime.

~Mere

Kedra said...

I am thinking of you & praying for you! You are doing such a beautiful thing for Kailtyn! You are a wonderful person & mother! I am blessed to know you~
love,
Kedra

Kedra said...

I am thinking of you & praying for you! You are doing such a beautiful thing for Kaitlyn! You are a wonderful person & mother! I am blessed to know you~
love,
Kedra

Mere said...

Thinking of you today!

~Mere